didnt feel well recently. sometimes im easily getting bad mood coz the bad news from taiwan when some friends passed me something happened there. i didnt go to the lecture this morning, even i got up early, compared to yesterday. but i receive a mail from ikeaaa, then i didnt want to school. i found out that i need to read and think as much as i could. i feel empty, i dont have too much things in my mind, ana also lack of sense too. or not enough. anxious all the times. i dont like social events. and dont like to talk to unfamiliar people. but i should try to. i feel lonely not because that im far from home. but because that i couldnt find someone has the same feeling with me. am i too worried about the current situation? sometimes i feel im not the one in tw, but im much worried than those who are there. i need more reading and thinking. no time to waste.